This time last year a wrote a note title “Mr Blaize’s top 10 tips for 2010″. It was done out of the spirit of an artist trying to do what so many artists innately do ,and that is to share. Well having gone through this year ,all glory goes to God for me still being alive. However i feel differently about what i wrote last year. Its not a question of whether it was right or wrong ,rather the depth of knowledge i’ve acquired this year wont allow me to settle for something as shallow. I simply mean i need to start sharing MEAT and not milk!! As i would i
‘ve uttered back in my gangsta wannabe days,
“time for realtalk fam!”
I’ve learnt a lot this year , about myself, human desire,dreams and of course fears. You name it I’ve most likely dealt with it in some degree this year.I attended my first wedding ,funeral and baby showers this year;all very strange times to be in, as in all three one is forced to ponder in the fragility of life.
Finding oneself is a continuing process, as is learning and loving and striving for any sort of success, speaking of success, i’ve had to decide what it was to ME as i think we all need to have our own definition of what it is.
I’ve gone from being depressed to being the happiest man in the world. I’ve lost friends an gained new ones. I’ve been broke ,comfortable, then broke again. Confused about my choices,wondering if i may just be crazy with some choices I’ve made. I’ve contacted faces from my past hoping they’d give me some sort of insight to my present and future. I’ve broken hearts and had mine broken, the list goes on. So what is this all about, surely God didn’t bring me here to see how badly i can mess things up?or did he?
I realized life, and all its demands is all about building ones character. The process of refining gold. We pray God work on me, make me better but when a challenge comes along we refuse to take the opportunity to grow . God is fair, life isn’t but he is. It s like a coach who puts his best fighter in a boxing ring against three or five giants , and the bemused fighter is convinced his coach hates him, but really this is all to make the fighter stronger. The coach is always cheering you on, dont expect life to. Separate “God” from “life” , God lets things happen, he lets challenges come our way. I can’t explain why, but i do know that having spoken to people who’ve been through difficulty, they are always stronger after triumph over that difficulty.
There is a difference between who we think we are and who we really are, and this can be crazy confusing, but we must press on. The process of renewing our minds and belief is continuous. It’s a one day thing or a one-time decision, its a series if good choices that lead to a change in direction.
I used to think God was a part of the clothes i hung on my clothing line, until i realized he should be the clothing line!He is not a part of my life but he should be more important than my life itself. Seek him with all your heart and you will find him.
Rather tan give you”tips” for the coming year,i only say one thing, if you want to change or grow, we can’t keep doing the same things, wishful thinking does nothing(i should know, i tried!!!). This voyage called 2010 is over and so i wish you well for the next, if however for some reason we do not meet on the end of the next voyage(2011) then i wish well and bid you farewell. Just remember to separate the clothing form the clothes.
To experience any change our input needs to change. If life brings “2″ to th table and we always respond with “2″ then we will always get 4.So if we want more, we need to stop putting in “2″.
Let me stop rambling! lol
Peace
